trying to be productive

so, these are what i made during the last weekend

uuuhhhhh da hair!! failed-_-

stuck on hair. hmmmm

still stuck on hair :(

need someone to teach me how to illustrating hair

i dont know what i am talking about

i was just thinking about future life things, like what i would do, what i would be, or how i would end up my life, by accident or disease or may be i'll suicide? then, reincarnation crossed in my mind. do you believe in reincarnation? if someone ask me that question, i'll answer undoubtedly "yeah. yeah, it's interesting"

i always liked the idea of all those unknown people lost in the world. a lot of people talk about past lives and things like that. even if they don't believe in it, in some specific way, people have a notion of an eternal soul. so this is what i thought. 50.000 years ago, there's not even a million people. 10.000 years ago, there's, like, two million people.
now there's between five and six billion people on the planet.
if we all have our own...
...individual, unique soul...
...where did they all come from?

are modern souls only a fraction of the original souls?

if they are, that represents a 5000 to 1 split of each soul, in the last 50,000 years. so at best, we're these tiny fractions of people walking.

is that why we're so scattered?

is that why we're so specialized?

yeah, i know, i know. it's a totally scattered. which is kind of why it makes sense, isn't it?

i thought it's kinda creepy and weird that our actually one soul split into 5000 soul (if reincarnation really exists)

so, my conclusion here is that i no longer believe in reincarnation. but, i don't know. 

i'm so sorry for making you read my random thought. i think, it's kinda weird but you know it makes sense.

P.S. : actually my first post (2010) is about reincarnation 

P.S.. : i have deleted that post 

to: mommy and daddy

EFEK RUMAH KACA LIVE IN SURABAYA!

Saturday, 12th October 2013

Jatim Fair, Grand City

ME. WANT. GO. THERE. SO. BADLY.!!!!!!!!

WHITE SHOES & THE COUPLES COMPANY LIVE IN SURABAYA!

Mondya, 13th October 2013

Surabaya Town Square

again. ME. WANT. GO. THERE. SO. BADLY.!!!!!!!!

REVOLUTIONARY ENTERTAINMENT AND EXPO WITH VARIOUS ARTS (REEVA)

Payung Teduh, Angsa & Serigala, Taman Nada Live In Surabaya!
Sunday, 20th October 2013
GOR Kertajaya

AGAIN. ME WANT GO THERE SO BADLYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

please mommy and daddy allow me to attend all of those concerts. i know that the problem is not about permission. i know that those all are depending on who will gonna pick me up, but i do also know that deep in your heart you do not allow me. i know that i bacame such an annoying daughter ever and act like a rebellious kids. but, dont you know that i do also need quality time with my best friends? spending night together and maybe sleepover? i think thats a great idea!